Grieving

God, I am here today because I am struggling to understand why You would want to take our pastor from us. Why do so few rule so many? Why is it that those 2 or 3 always get what they want and nothing ever happens to them? I don't understand. He is such an innocent victim...if he forgives and the other forgives, why not everyone else? Did you not teach us in Your word that forgiveness is the way? Did we not learn that there are no "big" sins or "little" sins? A sin is a sin. Plain and simple. Each day of my life, in church and in work, I will have to look at these people. I am trying so hard to do what You want me to do and love them, but I am really having so much trouble with that.....It hurts too much......I am so angry right now. Please help me Father. I need you now.