Victory and revelation

This post will be more of a journal for me this time. I am amazed with what the Lord has revealed to me in this week! I found out that in cutting Wade's medicine in half, that I actually did more than I was supposed to do! He really did have a great week. Basically only one rough day. I believe God is delivering him from this medication! I believe that God has made him normal and I will speak normal over him! He has given my family a new peace and assurance. Thank you, Father! I made some plans with you that I fully intend to keep. Plans that I know You have made for my family. I am reminded of the scripture in the Bible that tells me You have a plan for me, a plan to prosper and not to harm. A plan for a future....I claim it today. I speak peace and assurance in what you have shown me this week. Help me to continue to show this peace to Wade. Please help him as he visits with his father. That is a situation that only you are aware of....what he has to endure. Give him strength to believe in himself as he is there. I know you have something big in store for Wade. I thank you now for what you have done! Halleluiah!

confirmation

Thank you, Father for the confirmation I received today on Wade! I am walking on cloud nine and there is a new confidence in myself and this whole situation.....Thank you for friends that care!

Follow up

Follow up for the last post on weight.....I have only lost 1 pound but I lost 4 1/2 inches! Lean muscle mass weighs more so I am doing great! I am pleased once my friends put it in perspective for me....

On an even more interesting note.......I have made a decision that will upset my child's pediatrician.....I am taking him off his ADHD meds as they are causing soooo many serious side effects. He has become much more aggressive....I am trying the natural approach from Xooma right now. Please, God, let me know I have made the right decision to stand up as an advocate for Wade. Please, I know you led me back to them, I pray this was one of the reasons...

I love you,
Lisha

Weight Loss

God, I struggle with weight loss on a daily basis. I thought this was going to be different. I thought this 5 day jump start would show some encouraging results. So far it has not. I don' t understand.....why do I have to battle this when for others it is so easy and they don't have to worry with health issues that go along with it? It's not like I am eating to my hearts content. I have been making all the right choices....I don't want my assisstance to end. Please dear God, don't leave me now. This is MY storm that I go through. Please see me till the end. I don't want to be an embarrassment to my son.......

Lisha

Finality

Today was Pastor's last Sunday with us.......such a sad day for our church. To sing was one of the most difficult things I have had to do in a long time. I still am struggling with all the why's and how comes. Why does he have to go? Why can people not forgive? Why do others get away with such a judgemental attitude? How come so many have to hurt?

Please, God, send us a pastor that will help us heal...that will be more than what we have lost. Right now, I don't see how anyone can be better than what we had, but You know what is best for us. This will still take a long time to get over, to heal, to forgive those who can not forgive themselves....kind of sounds like the pot calling the kettle black, I guess.

I am learning to forgive, as I know that is what You would want....what Pastor would want....what a true christian needs to do....

Help me keep my eyes on You. To not give up....quit....that is so tempting. Sometimes I just want to go somewhere else so I don't have to see when they are not there anymore.

Please bear with me, Father, as I heal. Help me to not be like those who are judgemental and unforgiving. I love you so much. Please take care of Pastor Tom Johnson and his family as they undertake new and scary things....things they were not ready for at this time. I love them so.

Grieving

God, I am here today because I am struggling to understand why You would want to take our pastor from us. Why do so few rule so many? Why is it that those 2 or 3 always get what they want and nothing ever happens to them? I don't understand. He is such an innocent victim...if he forgives and the other forgives, why not everyone else? Did you not teach us in Your word that forgiveness is the way? Did we not learn that there are no "big" sins or "little" sins? A sin is a sin. Plain and simple. Each day of my life, in church and in work, I will have to look at these people. I am trying so hard to do what You want me to do and love them, but I am really having so much trouble with that.....It hurts too much......I am so angry right now. Please help me Father. I need you now.

Today is a dark and dreary day for our church. The devil is working hard to fight what You have done. Help us, Lord, to recover from this in the way that brings glory and honor to Your name. I love You.

Your servant,
Lisha