Well, the day has been a productive one, God. Made it through the second day of his grounding and I have hung in there. Being a parent that you would have me to be is difficult, especially with my son. Please help me, God to be the parent that is strong and wise. Help me to remember that nothing is too difficult for you, so therefore, it is not difficult for me because I have you in my life. Help me to not look at him as a reflection of his father, but as a separate person who just needs love, teaching and patience. Help me to BE patient with him. We are so much alike!

Thank you for my family. I couldn't have been blessed with a better one.

I love you!

Lisha

How come people from your past come to you 25 years later to tell you they are sorry for breaking your heart and tell you that you were the one who set the bar for the woman they would choose to marry later? I know we were kids, but my heart was really broken then. It was VERY real to me.
Why is it that they tell you how much they had wished they had never let you go, NOW, and not then? Don't get me wrong....I am totally in love with the man I am married to, and to the son I have with the previous one, but maybe if my self esteem was higher and I had been told occasionally that I was worth something so long ago, then maybe I would have never ended up in an abusive marriage for seven years.

Just had to vent with that one.....Thanks for listening to me God.

Love,
Lisha

I am here again, God... saw some words today at work that really made me stop and think.

Oh, Lord, my God, when I in awesome wonder, consider all the world Thy hands have made.
I see the stars. I hear the rolling thunder. Thy power throughout the universe displayed.
Then sings my soul, my Savior God to Thee. How great Thou art. How great Thou art. Then sings my soul, my Savior God to Thee. How great Thou art! How great Thou art!!!

When I think of what all You have done, I look at myself and feel ashamed of all the complaints I make so often. I should be taking time out each day to thank You for everything you have blessed me with, for all the joys you have given me and for all the lessons You have me learn. May I not forget who I am...I am the daughter of a King. I am your child. My concerns are Your concerns. My thoughts are Your thoughts. Please remind me, God. Even if it through the things I understand.....singing....music......children.

I love you so much and I stand here humbled by all You do for me and all You have created.

Lisha

Family

Well, here I am again God. Always wondering how I am going to get Wade through to adulthood. I have done all I know to do right as I was growing up, I stayed out of trouble, stayed in church, finished college, did all the things I knew to do. I made a mistake in my first marriage. I know I didn't marry the man you had for me and I paid for that. The question I have is ....why? Why do I have such an angry son? Why does he treat me this way one minute and then turn around and love me the next? Does he not see how this takes its toll on my heart? Why, God, when I left his daddy for the threats on my life and all the verbal abuse, does he seem more like him each day? I thought I took him out of that situation early enough.

In spite of my questions, I can't help but feel such unconditional love for him. He is the greatest thing I ever created and has such talent and is so smart. He is compassionate to others and is very musically talented. No matter how things turn out, I will never stop loving him. I pray that You will keep your hand on him in every situation. Please lead him into the path you have for him. Help me to be patient and remember to turn to you when I need help. I love you with all my heart and thank you so much for letting me ask these questions.

God, I am hoping this will be a good way for me to take the time out of my day to read and talk to You. Please help me to take this opportunity as many times as possible.

I am not ready to go back to work tomorrow. I am tired. I sometimes feel that I need a break from teaching...then I see my students. Please help me to be refreshed tomorrow and be the teacher you created me to be. That is all I can do tonight.

I love you,
Lisha